Layla Rudneva-Mckay | I Roll
15.02.22 - 19.03.22
Layla Rudneva-Mackay’s practice moves through painting, photography, sound and text, drawn into the ways bodies and language can be read and understood. I roll shows what it is to come into the light after darkness, what it is to be able to see again – not new things, but the already-there between self and others, unseeable for a time. These paintings are grounded in the joy of what it is to come into a world again, seeing, reconnecting with bodies, environments, beings that surface. The spaces between are full of the devoted strength to want to feel and move towards horizons – to study eye-thoughts that are not still.
It comes in waves and stands in close
I do not see
You, rational eye informing a rational I
a dominant eye is turning into
the dominant I
A reassured I
is very sure
And my waves fall still
And I do not feel
I roll. Over
Remembering that time we all had dinner in the dark before kids because it was a thing.
Through fumbling fingers for cutlery other sensations came, quietly almost insignificant.
Or after reading – I can’t remember.
Lying on the floor in my small office with eyes closed,
trying to feel the building’s vibration in my body, the distant movement of unknown people on wooden floors and Slamming doors.
Moving from the architectural model in my mind of a building seen, to the sound of distant walls and a sense of a large mass that I can feel thought.
Actively looking for a lost thing.
A thing that’s always there.
Which I cannot see with my eyes.
And never imagined I would lose.
For you are the dominant eye.
So who am I?